Love Fest

This week has been incredible. The energy from this weekend has carried throughout and I’ve literally had trouble trying to contain it. Tonight was the graduation ceremony for the new warriars and it was incredible to be reminded of the weekend here the warriars talk about their experiences, have their friends and family share what the transformations they witnessed in their loved one. Mike made it a special night by inviting friends and I was very surprised and felt very loved and supported when I saw Jannie, Cindy, Robert, Anna and Jack there to support me! I’m truly grateful for that and thankful that you could share in the “love fest” I’ll call it. I’m sad to say that my shadow showed up afterwards and put a damper on the evening for me. I’m working to shake it off and reflect on the love and kind words and thoughts that were put out to me and to others. I have to remind myself that just because I’m alone I’m not really alone. I’m thankful to be part of an incredible organization that is doing just what their mission states “Changing the World one Man at a time”! I’m proud to be one of those men and have a community of men to support me here in Dallas. Tonight I’m happy, sad and fearful. I’m happy that I have this support and love, sad that I allowed old messages to creep into my head afterwards and fearful that this joy and inspiration will go away. I know after something so powerful there is usually a “come down” period if you will. I haven’t gotten there yet and am hopeful that I won’t or that it happens gradually. I’m looking forward to the next step in this journey and learning more and how I can apply it. I’m reminding myself that the words and feedback I received I’m worthy of and can own as a Man today. I recognize my shadow is present tonight as I sit outside on the patio in the dark listening to the crickets and cars passing and I recognize just how quickly it can come up on me. Some old messages played in my head tonight and I allowed it to steal my joy. I want to thank Mike for being so thoughtful tonight and making my graduation special and inviting friends to celebrate in it with me. Thank you to the men that supported me and their families for supporting them. The love and kindness that I felt tonight was incredible. Seeing my before and after photo was crazy and brought back the emotions I felt both in the beginning and the end. I’ll cherish it always. With this I’m out.