a better place...

What a crazy few weeks it’s been. I finally got the ex to agree to sign off on the house had to give him money of course that’s the only thing that get’s his attention. (dig dig) But that is over and now that it’s mine I’ve been working to get some of the issues taken care of. Got the foundation repaired and the roof patched and ceiling repaired which is another story in itself. Other then money flowing freely out to others things have been going well.

I’m discovering a new joy in life and it’s nice to be happy. I considered myself happy in my relationship but didn’t realize until I was out of it just how unhappy I was. I’m still sad that Chris is so angry at me I had hoped that we could remain friends but that doesn’t not appear to be an option. He has created an idea in his head that I was cheating on him which isn’t true but I think he needs to believe that to make sense of it all. Chris always had to have a reason for things and typically they were not rational. I do wish him lots of happiness in his life and hope that he can let go of his anger and heal at some point. He’s a good person and deserves happiness.

As for me I’m doing great. Mike and I have reconnected which has been really wonderful. This did not happen until my relationship was over but since then it has taken off. We are getting to know each other again and spending time together and it’s really nice. He’s a Spiritual person which I was missing desperately in my life and his love for God has helped me reconnect and not feel ashamed or insecure of my beliefs. We’ve used the “L” word which is both scary and incredible. My biggest challenge is to not get ahead of myself and let things happen as they may and be patient. God seems to always be challenging me in that area of my life.

All in all things are going really well in my life. I have lost a few friends due to the split but people get caught up in rumors and stories and choose to believe whatever they want and as frustrating as it is to me I can’t change that. My true friends are still with me and supporting me and that feels awesome! I have a job that I love a home that is mine and a wonderful person to share it with. I have incredible family to support me and since the death of my sister we have all pulled together and gotten close again which is pretty awesome as well. I’m happy to see what the next chapter holds.. There I go again getting ahead of myself!

I’m out. ~J