two weeks later

So it's been a while since my last post. Most of you have gotten updates and I've been trying to not vomit my emotions and feelings on you all but I'm afraid I probably have. This has been a very difficult few weeks for me. Chris is still in the house he will be moving out the 28th. I have a roomate setup to move in around that same time so that worked out great and he's an awesome guy so I'm excited! I find myself the last few days really trying to stay away from that big rock I want to crawl under. A couple of my friends.. You know who you are! have gently called me on my disappearing act over the last few days. I honestly am just exhausted by it all. I feel like I've talked and talked and talked and now I just want to be quiet. I am still strong in the decision but the future is so scary. I feel very vulnerable most days and when I start talking about my feelings it is uncomfortable. I have a lot on my plate right now with the house and bills and the thought of being alone the rest of my life! Yes.. I've thought that on more then on occassion. The good news is i'm ok with it. Really I am. I don't want that but I would be ok with it. It's scary thinking about dating and romance and SEX after being in a relationship for 6 years. I've gotten very comfortable in the last 6 years and the thought of doing that again with someone else is exhausting! and a little exciting.. Time heals all I keep hearing so we shall see. Thanks for all the support and love.. Keep it coming!