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Today I find myself thinking about the future. What’s next? How do I go on from here? What do I do first? These are just a few of my questions. Chris and I made the decision this weekend to separate which has been really difficult for us both. I don’t want to go into detail but it was a mutual decision and one we feel is in the best interest of us both. I find myself feeling all sorts of emotions and am trying my best to sort through them as they arise, feel them, acknowledge them and keep moving forward. I’m honestly not sure where to start but am going to just keep putting one foot in front of the other. I’m sad that I’m loosing a partner but happy that I’m keeping a friend. I’m scared to be alone and worried I might not be relationship material or that I might be alone the rest of my life. I know that in life things good and bad come our way I’ve experienced this and am sure everyone else has and I feel it’s what you do with the experience and how you carry yourself afterwards that really defines our character. I’m trying my very best to do this with dignity and character and not disappear like I desperately would like to do at this moment! I’m asking for prayer for both Chris and I as we make this transition in our lives.